周期性的崩潰 - 暴食

By Ina
at 2011-05-25T07:27
at 2011-05-25T07:27
Table of Contents
又再來一次了
停藥較長一段時間 我又再度回來了
剛剛吃下了5人份的早餐
我也因為過度運動腳踝痛了一陣子
那種極度想吃的欲望
真的有人可以理性去克制嗎?
從前都很坦白跟父母說自己的暴食行為
現在卻有點想要隱瞞了
怕他們難過
原本想要保持努力的成果
打死不想再碰藥物了
總覺得一輩子吃藥的生活很可悲
可是經歷剛剛那場戰鬥後 我敗下陣了
默默地拿出櫃子裏的藥物吞了2顆
這是什麼樣的心情 想必這裏的大家都懂
對自己感到無力
現在學校的課業壓得我好難過
我自己都懷疑我真的走對路嗎?
我對這一點都沒興趣 而且越來越討厭
看很多資料顯示 暴食症的比率滿高的
但我身邊好像都是正常人
還是大家都像我一樣躲起來?
每次聽到一些根本不胖的同學說要減肥
不吃晚餐等等的
我都為他們感到憂心
並不是怕他們比我瘦 沒有ED的人是不懂得這痛苦的
我真得很不希望有人再步入這看不到盡頭的地方
可是就像我自己一樣 講不聽
今天好不想去上課
該死的休學念頭又來了 唉....
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停藥較長一段時間 我又再度回來了
剛剛吃下了5人份的早餐
我也因為過度運動腳踝痛了一陣子
那種極度想吃的欲望
真的有人可以理性去克制嗎?
從前都很坦白跟父母說自己的暴食行為
現在卻有點想要隱瞞了
怕他們難過
原本想要保持努力的成果
打死不想再碰藥物了
總覺得一輩子吃藥的生活很可悲
可是經歷剛剛那場戰鬥後 我敗下陣了
默默地拿出櫃子裏的藥物吞了2顆
這是什麼樣的心情 想必這裏的大家都懂
對自己感到無力
現在學校的課業壓得我好難過
我自己都懷疑我真的走對路嗎?
我對這一點都沒興趣 而且越來越討厭
看很多資料顯示 暴食症的比率滿高的
但我身邊好像都是正常人
還是大家都像我一樣躲起來?
每次聽到一些根本不胖的同學說要減肥
不吃晚餐等等的
我都為他們感到憂心
並不是怕他們比我瘦 沒有ED的人是不懂得這痛苦的
我真得很不希望有人再步入這看不到盡頭的地方
可是就像我自己一樣 講不聽
今天好不想去上課
該死的休學念頭又來了 唉....
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