憂鬱症 - 憂鬱症

Dinah avatar
By Dinah
at 2023-01-19T19:59

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Is anyone like us having to work tomorrow?

Our superintendent always gets a different idea about how to run the hospital. Now we have evening clinics, and we will not have long holidays as everyone (?) does this year (due to the clinic schedule).


My ENT doctor said I got sinusitis. Thankfully it was not COVID. Everyone got 3 sets of test kits today as too many people were infected with COVID. We were joking the holiday mode can be turned on immediately once you are positive.


I am still feeling a bit physically weak so I will postphone my TOEIC practice for a little bit longer (I know I have loads of execuses).


Everyone is talking about their CNY plans. My only plan is to stay at home alone and study. I do not have enough time to think if I would feel lonely. Maybe I will. But I might forget the loneliness if I am too busy with my study. I am not sure if I still have family. If I would make a wish, I want all of them to be killed in a car accident. I hate them all. I hate them all.

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[陰天]I'm witherd.

Eartha avatar
By Eartha
at 2023-01-19T15:24
明明沒工作了 也沒有特別晚睡 常常很早拉起棉被 但是沒有聲音無法入眠 需要聽歌或人聲 即使吃了安眠藥也還是睡不好 夢裡面滿是對自己的質疑跟生活的焦慮 做夢也不放過我 今天看鏡子的時候發現滿臉菜色就算了 眼下還一塊黑 人家說一個人走什麼運看他的氣色跟臉色所言不假 已經三個月沒拍照了 因為連我自己都覺得面目 ...

放棄治療

Rebecca avatar
By Rebecca
at 2023-01-19T15:01
已經完全不想再到醫學中心回診拿藥了,連續兩個月都這樣跟醫師說,下個月跟自己約定 好不要回診 我不值得被關心,不值得被花那麼多時間關注,我不重要,我消失了也沒人在意 心理治療(精神分析)繼續做下去合適嗎?但也是有人在陪我改變,是好事,就試著接受 吧 終究是要孤獨存活的,靠自己最實在,趕快找到工作吧… 解 ...

Noah avatar
By Noah
at 2023-01-18T20:53
然後我昨天就真的發燒了,請了兩小時的假去看醫生,順便拿耳朵的藥。昨天回家洗完澡就直接躺,半夜出了很多汗,換上乾的衣服再繼續躺,隔天一早跟平常一樣去上班。 大樓前面多了幾隻羊,傳照片給前同事,等他有空過來拍。 3月底最後一天有IRB,老闆希望我去上,我說那時候我就不在了,可以等掛到線上再去上,他說還是希望我 ...

再也不說(雷)

Una avatar
By Una
at 2023-01-18T10:24
我媽說 她再也不想聽到我說我想死 我說好,我再也不會說 今天我了解到 沒有人有義務承擔你的情緒 沒有人 這件事我一直都知道,所以我不會跟朋友講自己太負面的情緒 就算講,也是久久一次,不會一不開心就講 但是我會跟家人(我媽)講 我現在知道了,她其實,一點都不想聽到我的負面情緒 知道了,以後我都不會講的 我 ...

心理輔導(有雷

Megan avatar
By Megan
at 2023-01-18T03:53
隨便打打 雜亂無章 人生第一次做心理輔導是在大二的時候在學校裡 那個時候輔導老師問 你的學業有什麼問題嗎 你的家人 你的爸爸 媽媽 家裡的經濟 諸如此 類 我通通回答 沒有 都很好 但就很難過 不知道為什麼 那是一個沒有什麼建設性談話的一場輔導 我全程就是從頭哭到尾 老師感覺也很無言 只說沒 關係 想哭就 ...