憂鬱症 - 憂鬱症

I got a bit annoyed today as I read one passage on the Shame book: she was already 29 and still lived with her dad. And the term "emotional incest" keeps coming up througout the entire book. I felt disgusted and then I recalled that our mom always told us dad would rape us. She kept telling us things about rape since our childhood. She said dad will sell us as prostitutes, dad peed on the toilet seat so we would get pregnant when we sit on it, and dad fucked my sis for too many times and my mom lost
the count.

I remember once my mom cried loudly and said my dad raped her. I had no idea what was going on because I was too little to comprehend what rape meant to her. Did our dad rape us? No. But the idea of rape was deeply rooted in my head. Now I am living alone with my dad and subconsciously I feel disgusted about him. And he did pee on the toilet seat (maybe he is too old to hit the target.)


My mom was (and probably still is) obscessed with rape. Rape, cunt, fuck, vergina ... I had kept hearing these terms since childhood. I like watching gay porn but I cannot accept male-female sex video because females always play the role being humiliated. Rape is humiliation. Someone exposes your private part and go in and out your body as he wants.



I am angry at my mom and my dad. I wish they could get burned in hell. I hate my family. I hate them all.

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