憂鬱症 - 憂鬱症

Are some people destined to be lonely? I believe so. At least for now I believe so. We were born and raised in the same (shitty) family yet our lives are so different. I am single and two of my sis are married. One of them has a son, a loving husband, and a stable high-pay job. Another one quit her job for wanting get pregnant and she threw loads of money into preparation and ended in nothing. If destiny is real, I believe my sis and I are destined to be lonely. I have seen so many people missing
something in their lives. One of them is my ex-boss. I really adore her as she sort of is like being my mom. Yet her love life really sucks. She keeps changing her husband and she said every time she got disappointed at them. I remember one last scene when I stayed in Sydney. Her husband simply disappeared when she wanted to have some time being with him. She just sit alone in the living room. She sounded like she was hurt. I felt pain for her but I pretended to notice nothing.

Then I just realised that my sis' case is rare. No many people have a happy family and stable income at the same time. Yet she has prepared to lose everything at anytime. Anything could happen. Her husband could die before her, she said. My friend is still struggling with her life and so am I. I live so hard and I am feeling tired. Then I started to doubt if I am destined to be lonely till I die. I prayed to Him for many times that I hope I could have my family but nothing happened. People say it is not
fate it is a decision. It is you deciding to be alone but I doubt that. Sometimes it is not how hard you try (although sometimes this is the case) but how lucky you are. If you can be born in a wealthy family and your parents are well educated, you have higher chances to win at life. I know there are many successful cases of poor people climbing the social ladder but most of time it still depends on how many resources you have. Tenacity for example. You cannot blame people for being weak because they did
not choose to be weak.

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