邊緣性人格 - 憂鬱症
By Mason
at 2016-02-04T04:17
at 2016-02-04T04:17
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應該是從某位醫生開始的吧?聽到了這個名詞
這個名詞寫在了我的病歷上面
即使不久 就又換了自己也數不清的第幾個醫師了
這個診斷 變成可有可無一般
有醫生能讓我好過一點就好 這個人格怎麼矯正 早就無所謂了
但恐懼與悲痛的事情還是一再重演
自己跟大多數的人不一樣 無法掩蓋
夠了
想跟自己的痛苦 來個正面對決
不然怎麼面對每一天
怎麼被情緒大浪偷襲時基本穩住
即使多活一天只是痛苦一天
邊緣性人格?
好 先來個知己知彼
查書 查網路
天啊 那些症狀 像串通好了一樣
沒百發百中也有十之八九
那些典型的劇情 自己明明沒看過 卻精準的演了好幾回
知道是知道了,但治療是消極的
將就著開藥大方的醫生 貪圖390可以拿兩個月大量千憂解跟安眠藥的慢箋
就這樣過了6年
因為知道自己某些行為很邊緣性人格
所以刻意再也不那樣做 那樣說
殊不知變得壓抑 麻木 沉默 封閉
不是治療 只是拖延
注意到時 自己早已比當初更絕望
幾個月前去看了大方醫生
一貫 什麼也不想說
說了的 也不是實話
醫生倒是翻了翻厚厚的病歷
說 我擔心啊 怎麼都醫不好妳
後事著手到一半的我
處理到財產時 真的心有不甘
雖然上班極其勉強自己
因病也換了8份工作
但我還是省吃儉用 辭了再找 日夜兼差 持續工作
存款到了一桶金
就這樣走 錢只是留給拋棄我的爸爸 情緒勒索我多年的媽媽 一走了之要我扛家的姊姊…
我決定再給自己最後一次機會,與其拱手讓人,不如治療自己
換個醫生。或什麼都好
請有相關經驗的病友,隨意跟我分享些什麼,好嗎?
醫師,經驗,心情,體會…
拜託了
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