記事 - 憂鬱症

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試圖為妳做什麼但效果背道而馳這樣的事

you said you're trying to bring me to your life and make this realtionship real
but the cost is I have to deal with reality.
我懂
但我應該有選擇跟決定的權力
你不小心忘記的細節
奪走了我選擇的權力
你要我怎麼眼睜睜看著這些做完這個案子
你讓我沒有選擇
你讓我只能在毀掉自己的專業聲譽和噁心的做完之間做選擇。



我以為我們好不容易解決了最近的問題
電話裡的眼淚和和好
原本很開心
決定去洗衣服
然後 又是這樣
躺在床角 哭得無法移動無法呼吸

我只是想要幾天開心的日子而已。


1.
There is an elephant in the room.
we both know it
but we didn't know how to or whether we can deal with it or not.

we are not ready to discuss it yet.

2.
It's an elephant, a big, giant elephant
it's not a small dog
you dump the elephant on me
I am dead before we got the chance to handle the elephant.


how could you put me in the cage then shuffle the elephant in???!!
how could you take that option/my right to choose away from me???
how could you act if it's no big deal??
how could you force me to choose between puke my gut out and my reputation?




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