想媽媽了...... - 抗癌

By Belly
at 2015-07-07T00:15
at 2015-07-07T00:15
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媽媽在6月19日,端午節前一天去極樂世界了
以為自己哭得差不多了
以為自己已經適應媽媽不在家的生活,就像她以前住院一樣
以為自己應該可以忘記走之前的她,只記得健康的她
剛剛再幫自己揉淤青時,想到她走的一星期前,我也幫她揉針孔下的滿手淤青(她血管細
,下針不容易打準),於是我哭了......
會記得是因為我有拍下她的手,說她是家暴婦女,然後她邊被我揉淤青邊苦笑(因為我強
調要揉50下),我說都是她以前愛打我,所以我才這麼會揉淤青。
明明那時有說有笑......
突然感受到不一樣的地方......
我再也無法幫她推淤青
再也無法跟她說話
再也不能跟她抱怨男友
再也不能吃她煮的飯
再也不能看見她......
住院的話,直接去醫院找她就好了,但現在是找不到她了
可是不能傷心過度,因為她一直偷偷跟別人(阿姨、她的姊妹淘)說最捨不得她4個孩子
媽媽,妳在那裡還好嗎?
可以到我夢裡告訴我喔!
一直沒有夢到妳,我覺得好失落......
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以為自己哭得差不多了
以為自己已經適應媽媽不在家的生活,就像她以前住院一樣
以為自己應該可以忘記走之前的她,只記得健康的她
剛剛再幫自己揉淤青時,想到她走的一星期前,我也幫她揉針孔下的滿手淤青(她血管細
,下針不容易打準),於是我哭了......
會記得是因為我有拍下她的手,說她是家暴婦女,然後她邊被我揉淤青邊苦笑(因為我強
調要揉50下),我說都是她以前愛打我,所以我才這麼會揉淤青。
明明那時有說有笑......
突然感受到不一樣的地方......
我再也無法幫她推淤青
再也無法跟她說話
再也不能跟她抱怨男友
再也不能吃她煮的飯
再也不能看見她......
住院的話,直接去醫院找她就好了,但現在是找不到她了
可是不能傷心過度,因為她一直偷偷跟別人(阿姨、她的姊妹淘)說最捨不得她4個孩子
媽媽,妳在那裡還好嗎?
可以到我夢裡告訴我喔!
一直沒有夢到妳,我覺得好失落......
--
Sent from my Android
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