姊姊走了以後 - 化療

By Suhail Hany
at 2013-01-10T10:47
at 2013-01-10T10:47
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姊姊不在已近一年了
現在我看到快一歲大的女兒還是會想起她
她那麼善良,那麼壓抑,
她曾經說就是這樣才會都生胸部的病。
先是乳癌第二期,割除後追蹤治療近兩年
接著在前一年檢查,醫生看X光片說「很乾淨」的肺部發現肺癌,
難怪她咳了好幾個月......
不煙不酒的姊姊,這時發現肺癌就已經遠端轉移了。
最後的日子就是化療,和抵抗全身趴趴走的癌細胞。
後來,姊姊愈來愈虛弱,從發現肺癌時還可以走公園好幾圈,
不到半年只能坐公園椅子,然後躺在床上......
做妹妹的我還一直幫她打氣,滿心以為她會好......
那時我又懷孕在娘家安胎,姊姊則是姊夫沒空照顧,
也放在娘家,
因此我們互相陪伴。
在我快臨盆的前幾天,我還陪姊姊去放療,
因為家裡實在沒人了。
記得去台大醫院時,
曾一進門就有義工馬上問我需不需要輪椅,
我一直跟他說「姊姊不肯坐輪椅」,
結果搞了半天,他是問大肚婆我需不需要輪椅......
後來我生了孩子,住月子中心,
姊姊來看了我兩三次,
每次都只能坐在那裡看小安,她說她沒力氣抱。
姊姊自己沒孩子,所以一直期盼我的孩子出生,
記得生小孩那天,還是姊姊跟我說好想小孩趕快出來,
結果小孩就出來了~
但也是因為小孩的緣故,
做完月子我被老公接回花蓮住,
沒兩個禮拜,姊姊就走了。
我抱著不到兩個月大的孩子坐火車,
到台大醫院病房時,
姊姊已經到天上去了......
後來整理她的遺物時,
才發現她病後請來的佛畫像花了好幾十萬......
還找到加入直銷的資料......
真的很生氣,這些人看姊姊生病了,趁她六神無主時就大肆坑人,
希望大家不要再被這些人騙了,
花再多錢請神,還不如把錢花在讓自己享受一點。
而且姊姊花了錢還不敢講,精神壓力一定又很大,
一定又加重她的病情了。
唉,我好想念她喔......
希望她在天上過得好。
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現在我看到快一歲大的女兒還是會想起她
她那麼善良,那麼壓抑,
她曾經說就是這樣才會都生胸部的病。
先是乳癌第二期,割除後追蹤治療近兩年
接著在前一年檢查,醫生看X光片說「很乾淨」的肺部發現肺癌,
難怪她咳了好幾個月......
不煙不酒的姊姊,這時發現肺癌就已經遠端轉移了。
最後的日子就是化療,和抵抗全身趴趴走的癌細胞。
後來,姊姊愈來愈虛弱,從發現肺癌時還可以走公園好幾圈,
不到半年只能坐公園椅子,然後躺在床上......
做妹妹的我還一直幫她打氣,滿心以為她會好......
那時我又懷孕在娘家安胎,姊姊則是姊夫沒空照顧,
也放在娘家,
因此我們互相陪伴。
在我快臨盆的前幾天,我還陪姊姊去放療,
因為家裡實在沒人了。
記得去台大醫院時,
曾一進門就有義工馬上問我需不需要輪椅,
我一直跟他說「姊姊不肯坐輪椅」,
結果搞了半天,他是問大肚婆我需不需要輪椅......
後來我生了孩子,住月子中心,
姊姊來看了我兩三次,
每次都只能坐在那裡看小安,她說她沒力氣抱。
姊姊自己沒孩子,所以一直期盼我的孩子出生,
記得生小孩那天,還是姊姊跟我說好想小孩趕快出來,
結果小孩就出來了~
但也是因為小孩的緣故,
做完月子我被老公接回花蓮住,
沒兩個禮拜,姊姊就走了。
我抱著不到兩個月大的孩子坐火車,
到台大醫院病房時,
姊姊已經到天上去了......
後來整理她的遺物時,
才發現她病後請來的佛畫像花了好幾十萬......
還找到加入直銷的資料......
真的很生氣,這些人看姊姊生病了,趁她六神無主時就大肆坑人,
希望大家不要再被這些人騙了,
花再多錢請神,還不如把錢花在讓自己享受一點。
而且姊姊花了錢還不敢講,精神壓力一定又很大,
一定又加重她的病情了。
唉,我好想念她喔......
希望她在天上過得好。
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All Comments

By Andy
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By Irma
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By Hazel
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剩下的只有一成是用在食衣住行上,其他全都是醫藥費

By Daniel
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By Victoria
at 2013-03-20T19:29
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因為受苦的不是我 是病人

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By George
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By Hedda
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所謂 很多事情都沒有解答的 哀

By Anonymous
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By Caroline
at 2013-04-04T09:17
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為家人的照顧和關愛不夠,而是人在絕望時,任何人家
說有用的東西,都會想豁出去試試看,哪知道就被坑了。
家有患者的版友,會在這裡分享求助或關心其他版友的,
想必都是對生病的家人有一定程度的關心和掛心,所以大
家還是彼此支持打氣吧:)這也是我們來這個版想看到和
得到的吧。大家一起加油,幫助自己或家人走過這些關卡
吧:)

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By Oscar
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我們不知道有沒有用 也是讓媽媽喝 如果花錢能讓病人好一點
我覺得都無傷大雅 既然現在事情都過去了 留下的人也不用在

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By Quanna
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能不太公平喔 :)

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狀態是連亂買的權力都沒有

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