如果我不在了 - 化療

By Gilbert
at 2014-07-22T08:31

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前天晚上睡前，我問了我先生，如果我不在了，他還會去看我爸媽嗎?

他回答，會啊!一年大概兩三次吧!會太少嗎?!

我心裡一驚，沒有說話。(我以為我不在了，他們的關係會因為沒小孩就停止了)

他又說了，到時候靈堂還是會設在我家吧!還是你媽想弄在你家?!

我又一驚，這邏輯的想法果然是我老公，完全沒有想要安慰我的意思。

當我敗血症陷入昏迷住進加護病房時，我媽，一個沒有受過教育的人，不識字，

隻身從屏東上來台北照顧我，每天自己搭公車來回四趟往返我的租屋處與醫院，

我們在台北是沒有親戚的。

出加護後，我問了我媽，你有沒有想過我醒不過來的時候?!

我媽哭著對我說，不會的，她相信我會醒過來的，因為我是她女兒。

這一年多以來，經歷了結婚、乳癌、化療、加護病房、放療、我姐的憂鬱症、我公

公的驟逝、買房子以及醫生宣告無法生育，好像夢一樣，卻又真實的在我身上發生。

我不是不會害怕死亡或復發，但有那麼多的責任與不捨給了勇氣要我面對。似乎很想

忘了自己曾是病人的事實，然而身上的疤以及每天的藥都提醒著我。

我是一個悲觀的人，但我很慶幸身旁有樂觀的老公、堅強的老媽、我最愛的老

爸，以及不可獲缺的家人與朋友們。在我還呼吸的每一天，我都會盡可能的讓色彩停

留在我的生命紙上。

我希望，75歲時，我還可以在這個版上跟各位報平安。35歲，生日快樂。

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Tags: 化療乳癌

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By Selena
at 2014-07-24T10:53

生日快樂，為將來的75歲生日，衷心祈禱，平安健康。

By Iris
at 2014-07-29T10:43

為了所有愛你，關心你的人；也讓相同的祝福回到他們身上。
要開心、努力的過着精彩的每一天。加油。

By Christine
at 2014-08-01T11:14

生日快樂~

By Hedwig
at 2014-08-02T21:56

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By Caitlin
at 2014-08-04T04:50

在同一頁就有了

By Zora
at 2014-08-06T10:36

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By Bethany
at 2014-08-11T10:03

加油:)

By Emma
at 2014-08-13T03:37

p果這次化療療程走完，務必快去台大參加有時間性及條件的

By Daph Bay
at 2014-08-14T14:29

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By Vanessa
at 2014-08-16T17:06

生日快樂

By Callum
at 2014-08-17T09:15

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By Linda
at 2014-08-19T09:20

生日快樂~

By Queena
at 2014-08-20T20:36

生日快樂

By Zenobia
at 2014-08-22T02:37

我也跟我媽說我想葬在娘家，我媽說不行，我嫁出去了

By Margaret
at 2014-08-25T17:28

我媽說這樣老公要看我就要跑很遠哦，我也常常悲觀

By Andy
at 2014-08-27T04:03

很怕死前漏尿漏屎插管折磨我，但至少我們有很愛的人

By Liam
at 2014-08-27T12:25

替愛的人加油也替自己想開一點哦

By Carol
at 2014-08-28T07:17

加油，心情記得要隨時保持放鬆，多幫助別人，把自己忘記，
病痛會減輕許多喔，祝您生日快樂！

By Kumar
at 2014-08-30T03:35

生日快樂！你一定會活到120歲的(^_-) 要開開心心的過每一天

By Elma
at 2014-09-02T19:14

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By Yuri
at 2014-09-06T15:50

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By Jacob
at 2014-09-11T15:34

辛苦了

By Eden
at 2014-09-13T15:17

生日快樂,你一定能和癌細胞和平共處的,加油!

By Lucy
at 2014-09-15T15:36

加油! 生日快樂! 等你75歲的文:)

By Ingrid
at 2014-09-17T15:56

生日快樂，你一定可以快樂平安的走過未來的每個生日，加油!

By Doris
at 2014-09-18T22:13

生日快樂！！加油～

By Hamiltion
at 2014-09-23T12:35

可以請問一下是台大的哪個臨床試驗嗎？

By Puput
at 2014-09-27T15:58

我想知道我媽媽能不能去

By Una
at 2014-09-28T01:19

生日快樂

By Edward Lewis
at 2014-10-02T03:28

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By Michael
at 2014-10-02T07:16

生日快樂!一起加油!大家也都為妳加油，痛苦的治療終於完
成了，要開心生活唷!醫療會越來越進步的(握)

By Carol
at 2014-10-05T10:03

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By Quintina
at 2014-10-09T11:02

我覺得生命不在長短而在精不精采我也要朝這個方向實行

By Mia
at 2014-10-10T23:46

共勉之還有請告訴自己一定會好起來的加油

By Isla
at 2014-10-14T01:15

生日快樂，天天開心，平安健康

By Susan
at 2014-10-14T06:11

生日快樂！平安還有越來越健康！

By Mason
at 2014-10-15T21:44

生日快樂!!!一定沒問題的~40年後見 :D

By Sandy
at 2014-10-18T17:19

生日快樂！可以跟家人討論生死大事感覺很好

By Freda
at 2014-10-22T18:54

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By Hazel
at 2014-10-25T17:06

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By William
at 2014-10-26T21:59

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By Bennie
at 2014-10-28T04:34

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By Olive
at 2014-10-30T05:31

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By Dora
at 2014-11-02T03:18

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By Zora
at 2014-11-04T19:35

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By Emma
at 2014-11-09T15:03

生日快樂！千萬要加油努力過下去

By Yuri
at 2014-11-11T05:49

把每一天都當成最後一天過知足感恩周圍一切. 祝福你

By Linda
at 2014-11-14T16:45

生日快樂！

By Tom
at 2014-11-16T16:02

生日快樂

By Ula
at 2014-11-20T06:45

生日快樂!加油

By Ula
at 2014-11-21T16:17

祝你生日快樂！也祝你身體越來越健康！

By Dorothy
at 2014-11-25T10:46

生日快樂, 真的, 要保持心情上的愉悅

By Jacky
at 2014-11-27T10:00

生日快樂！要加油喔！！：）

By Jacky
at 2014-11-28T06:55

加油先預祝75歲生日快樂喔~

By Ethan
at 2014-12-03T05:16

生日快樂！要加油過生日到７５歲哦！

By Bethany
at 2014-12-03T13:44

生日快樂 !!

By Dora
at 2014-12-07T14:18

加油!! 會更好的

By Agnes
at 2014-12-11T11:17

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By Hardy
at 2014-12-12T18:06

生日快樂!! 一定沒問題的加油!!

By Hedwig
at 2014-12-14T08:13

Happy birthday to you

By Mason
at 2014-12-14T14:06

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By Selena
at 2014-12-16T23:38

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By Frederic
at 2014-12-17T01:01

生日快樂~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

By Edith
at 2014-12-19T00:13

生日快樂！妳一定可以的！加油哦！：)

By Franklin
at 2014-12-19T08:39

生日快樂 ^_^ 加油!! 一定可以的...

By Xanthe
at 2014-12-19T18:36

要加油。堅強度過每一天！

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at 2014-12-22T00:28

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at 2014-12-25T02:23

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at 2014-12-29T14:31

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By Eartha
at 2015-01-01T23:29

生日快樂加油要堅強妳可以成功的!!!

By Tom
at 2015-01-04T00:05

生日快樂!

By Joe
at 2015-01-07T21:05

生日快樂！

By Ula
at 2015-01-09T18:31

生日快樂！也希望版上的每一個人都健康快樂！

By Edith
at 2015-01-09T23:56

生日快樂哦! 一定要樂觀很好的方面想加油:)

By William
at 2015-01-12T13:05

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By Genevieve
at 2015-01-16T04:03

生日快樂!! 加油!!!

By Annie
at 2015-01-19T21:09

生日快樂！！！健康每一天。

By Isla
at 2015-01-22T19:52

生日快樂 :)

By Connor
at 2015-01-27T05:20

生日好像過了，還是一樣祝福你，加油！

By Hedy
at 2015-01-27T12:28

生日快樂!!

By Hardy
at 2015-01-30T19:48

加油！保持情緒正面！

By Delia
at 2015-02-02T00:16

生日快樂，您有一位堅強又偉大的母親，要為了她

By William
at 2015-02-02T21:10

也為了自己，要努力抗癌唷，也要定時回來報平安。

By Kama
at 2015-02-06T00:24

生日快樂，你一定會活到超過75的

By Iris
at 2015-02-06T05:32

生日快樂!加油!

By Poppy
at 2015-02-10T00:25

生日快樂！加油！！！

By James
at 2015-02-13T05:30

生日快樂~祝福你們~加油~努力~

By Kelly
at 2015-02-16T12:30

生日快樂!希望妳們一家都能一直開心

By Steve
at 2015-02-20T06:55

生日快樂!你一定可以的!要快樂過每一天喔!

By Callum
at 2015-02-22T13:41

生命中有風有雨，但也會有陽光，生日快樂。

By Skylar DavisLinda
at 2015-02-26T06:53

生日快樂！:)

By Kristin
at 2015-02-28T01:20

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By Vanessa
at 2015-02-28T09:43

生日快樂!!!

By Mia
at 2015-03-04T11:20

加油！

By Kristin
at 2015-03-07T09:10

happy birthday everyday

By Hazel
at 2015-03-07T22:31

一定會平安的生日快樂 (^_^)

By Doris
at 2015-03-10T22:33

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By Charlie
at 2015-03-13T12:14

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By Zanna
at 2015-03-17T15:03

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By Suhail Hany
at 2015-03-20T06:46

生日快樂

By Olive
at 2015-03-21T22:03

加油~ 並祝生日快樂!

By Daniel
at 2015-03-24T18:39

加油~~你的家人們都很愛你

By Leila
at 2015-03-28T23:03

生日快樂！

By Joe
at 2015-04-01T08:25

要為了愛妳的人加油唷

By Daph Bay
at 2015-04-04T23:46

生日快樂

By David
at 2015-04-05T20:53

加油，樂觀自信也是抗癌的關鍵

By Iris
at 2015-04-09T15:24

生日快樂

By Agnes
at 2015-04-11T00:05

加油!!!

By Puput
at 2015-04-15T02:31

生日快樂加油

By Rosalind
at 2015-04-15T23:48

加油，生日快樂

By Kyle
at 2015-04-16T15:19

生日快樂加油

By Edith
at 2015-04-20T09:13

加油!

By Charlotte
at 2015-04-25T04:47

生日快樂唷! 你很棒的!

By Ethan
at 2015-04-28T21:35

加油

如果我不在了 - 化療

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